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INTRO

Tell me what does it mean
When you don’t wanna die
But you have no concern
In staying alive

When I look at the night sky and the stars
And the distance between us doesn’t seem so far
I think I might like to join you in heaven or hell
Or wherever you are

ANOMIE 

Got no purpose, got no pride
Just holding on most of the time
I believe in nothing but what is mine, what is mine
Got no vision, see no light
Just terrified of our own lives
And we atomize, we atomize

One is three, three is nine
Feel so fucked up all the time
It’s not the same man since you died
Since you died we’ve been paralyzed

Dérèglement

Hold my hand and take me down
To the places I can’t be found
I don’t know if I’ll see you again

Greyhound driver failed the breathalyzer, I don’t know where the hell I’m gonna go
What would I do if I didn’t have you, I’d be a frightened animal too scared to move

All the people they go the same way, I do too I get lost on the way
All the people they go the same way, I’m so alone I go the same way too
All the people we go the same way, I’m so alone I wanna be alone

There’s no meaning beyond me
And if I lose faith in myself
Please tell me there’s something else

Greyhound driver failed the breathalyzer, I don’t know where the hell I’m gonna go
What would I do if I didn’t have you, I’d be a frightened animal too scared to move
Or maybe I’d keep walking into the forest until it was too late to turn back

All the people they go the same way, I do too but I get lost on the way
All the people they go the same way, I’m so alone I go the same way too
All the people we go the same way, I’m so alone I don’t wanna be alone

YOU WERE THERE

If I had an evolutionary mind
Always mindful that we’re just the twinkle of an eye
I don’t know but I think we couldn’t help but shine
But I can’t escape my limited sense of time

If I had an astronomical mind
Aware of my insignificance all the time
When I’m stargazing I sometimes know my place
But I can’t escape my limited sense of space

Can’t really tell you how it happened
People slip through the cracks we never imagined
It’s not an accident or some kinda dislocation
More a symptom of this violent path we’ve taken

And you were there before I realized
And you were gone before I realized
What it looks like when we atomize
What it means when we have atomized

IF YOU LOVE ME LET ME GO

Echoes in an empty room
Honey winter’s coming soon

If you love me you have to let me go
If you love me you have to let me go
To the places where only I can go

Dead leaves blow against the wall
Honey summer turns to fall

DEFECTIVE HEART/DREAMS

Well you found a heart made of gold
After searching the depths of the sea
But why would you waste it on me?

I don’t know the reason and I can’t express
This feeling of emptiness
That’s hollowed out my chest

They fall in love all the time
If it’s so easy then why can’t I?
And I know what you need
But you won’t get it from me
Just chasing shadows in the dark
For my defective heart

(Break)

In my dreams there is a person I have seen
But only in dreams I see this person in me
Though I still believe in my dreams, in what I could be

What I’ve become is not what I’ll be
The dreams of my youth come flooding back to me

In my dreams, my dreams, my dreams

SHADOW VISIONS

Spent the last 30 years in bombed out towns and the same old bars
Watching the people dance, and did you see me crying?
Tried to hitchhike out of town, 6-pack and something hard
Didn’t make it very far, gave up when it got dark
Found an abandoned shack, slept on the side of the highway
Felt my heart break in two under the same sky as you

You don’t know me anymore

Sleep on my right side so I can’t feel it
But my heart keeps beating, keeps beating without me

ROLE CONFUSION

You can use me I’ve got no control
You can use me ‘cause I’ve got no soul
You can use me again even though
My puritan soul is screaming no no no no

I was chasing the vision it became something else
Spent the last two years debasing myself
I woke up and the vision was dispelled

Wanna suffer, gonna be
Paul Westerburg parody
For the small fame, for the dream
Privileged white kids suffer for free

I was chasing the vision I became something else
Spent the last two years debasing myself
I was chasing the vision I became someone else
Spent the last two years debasing myself ‘til the dream was dispelled

Time will vindicate me
Time will have the final say
Time will expose us all for the tired out clichés
We thoughtlessly embraced and became

FANGS

I’ve loved you in silence, in dreams
In the shadows where I sharpen my teeth

You’re an animal that I know I can’t tame
Your wild eyes, your mouth, and your fangs

Baby come right here to me
Take me I want it to bleed

Your mouth my blood uh huh
My mouth your blood uh huh
Your blood my love uh huh

FIRST TIME I SAW YOU

First time I saw you
First time I saw you I knew

EGO IDENTITY

I’m writing you to let you know I’m leaving all that shit behind I’m moving on
I can’t go back to that time or that place these shadow visions they mean nothing now

We will exceed our wildest dreams be everything that we can be
There is no meaning beyond me
I’m looking for something that’s greater than me
I’m finding something that is more than me

I don’t wanna live that life anymore

I FOUND LOVE

When I died and my heart stopped beating
In my dreams I can’t breathe
City noise, human debris
I was a ghost in these streets

I found love

The white noise, city cacophony
If I listen close I can hear your heart beat
I’m alive and I do believe that it’s beating for me

I found love
I found love I have everything I need

 


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

BELIEVE

First time I saw you, you were looking at yourself
In a window I was headed in the other direction
I caught your eye in the reflection

Things beyond my control
Feeling I’ve never known
I need to know you
I’ve been alone too long
Things I believe were meant to be

I’m searching for you baby
I’m chasing after you endlessly
I’m running through these dirty streets
I’ve lost my mind but I do believe
These things were meant to be

I’M GONNA TRY

Walking down the street and I wanna kill everyone I see
How come I don’t like anyone that I meet?
And despite my antipathy I am longing to be someone better

In my heart is a violence that I cannot dispel
I’ve lost my mind, I’m losing you, it’s just as well

I’m gonna throw on these old jeans, I’m gonna head out on the streets
I’m gonna dream up a new dream, I’m gonna dance to a brand new beat
I’m gonna find a new desire then I’m gonna set this town on fire

I’m wearing a smile and it’s fake but right now it has to be
Cause I know that love is the only thing that’s gonna save me

I’m gonna try

NO ONE

There is no one in sight
My life is passing me by
Somehow time keeps on moving on without me

My heart has given up on me
Fell into disuse and atrophy
Somehow time keeps on moving on without me

Tonight

I know my life is passing me by
When will i find love in my life
When will i find you

EAST VAN GIRLS

We shared a glance
At a thrift store on Hastings
And I smiled at you and you scowled at me

You and your entourage
Got on your shitty bikes
I watched you from the line-up
With my chest on fire

Got on your bikes and headed east
In my mind your headed east
Eternally

But is it too far east for me?

INTO THE SEA

Into the sea I will be
Blood on my hands, I won’t look back
I’ve gone too far for that, I’ve gone out too far for that

The rhythms of the ocean, the waves crash against me
I close my eyes and leave everything behind

I don’t worry anymore, oh I don’t worry anymore

I know the sea will be the same
Crashing of the waves will be unchanged
Just like nothing ever happened
Like nothing ever happened

NERVOUS BREAKDOWN

Please medicate my mind, it’s really gone this time
Though I feel alright, there’s nothing left to hide
Everything that I do betrays the nervous wreck inside

Headed for a nervous breakdown
I can’t stay gonna leave this town behind
Though I could escape this place I can’t escape my mind

Friend I apologize if I don’t return your call
It’s not that I’m somewhere else
It’s that I’m not really here at all

Headed for a nervous breakdown…
All of my anxieties will be there waiting just for me
I can’t see the point in trying to run
From what’s inside of me

PRIVILEGE

Oh sleepless nights my mind is wrong like it’s been for too long
And I don’t know why tv’s on all night, watching other lives
I break down and I cry

I don’t know what has happened
I just want to be happy

I’ve got no reason to feel this way
But it won’t go away

I know people have real problems I have no right to complain
I’ve lived a life of total privilege and undeserved pained
I don’t know (if I can change)

SUN’S GOING DOWN

Sun is going down I keep running to keep up
But I can’t run fast enough
Sun is going down I keep running through the past
Looking for something I never had

Oh I really don’t know where I’m gonna go
Feeling so old and alone
Oh when we were young
Chasing the sun to the middle of the ocean

We were so young

I’m not okay
I’m not okay
Sun’s going down
And I’m so afraid

SABIANS

When we were animals and we wandered
Through the forest in the twilight
Underneath the canopy that hides the stars
But our desires shine naked and true

We were members of a star worshipping cult
In 6th century syria
Wandering through the desert and chasing shooting stars

I tracked you down to industrial town
Wreckage surrounds you when I found you
The heart of winter you were crying
You couldn’t speak I’ve been chasing you in my dreams

I will find you

DANCING TO MUSIC I HATE

I’ll just wait outside, don’t know why I try
I’ve been dancing to music I hate for my whole life
When we get inside, and I realize
I’ll be dancing to music I hate for my whole life

And everyone acts so naturally
And I need everything that everyone needs
But I just wanna leave

I’m still going home alone

I DON’T WANNA KNOW

Summer where are you gonna go?
I don’t think I know
Now you’re on your own
Please don’t go too far

Thoughts I can’t control
I don’t wanna know
City noises and my broken heart
I don’t know where you are

Where are you gonna go?
I don’t think I know
Now you’re on your own

Where have you gone?

OTHER GIRLS

Somebody’s calling my name but I’m just getting lost
Some kind of flame I know that I can’t exhaust
And where I will go I just don’t know
I feel it in my veins and in my bones

Some awful storm in my mind
Once a distant ring is thundering

All these other girls I run around with they don’t mean a thing
They don’t mean a thing

DID I LOSE YOU

Stay out all night for my future wife
So lonely tonight
I know our fates are bound but where are you now
Did I lose you somehow?

Well I don’t know where you’ve gone
And your name I just don’t know
But I believe we’re pulled together
By things that are beyond our control

Another night in my bombed out life
So lonely tonight

WALK AWAY

Walk away, all my life it’s been this way
Walk away, all my life it’s been this way
I tried to move but I can’t walk away from you

We could still be friends, we could still be friends
Like we were before
We could still be friends, we could just pretend
It’s like it was before
But oh can’t you see that I just want more

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

NOT GROWING UP

Over-privileged, out of school, always underemployed
Oh ambition where’d you go now I’m floating in the void
Free to dream and free to be anything and it’s crippling

Everyone I know is cracking up
Wanna get somewhere but just get stuck
Growing old but not growing up

GREYHOUND ROMANCE

Got on in Merritt you were across the aisle
I caught your eye and I think I saw you smile
Your hair is black yeah my heart’s beating so fast
Iknow nothing ever really lasts

I’ve got no place to go
And nothing to believe
When you smiled at me

You said come on, come on honey
Come next to me

Pretty soon we’re sailing through the prairies
Under the stars we’re talking ’bout our dreams
I wanna tell you but I hope it doesn’t scare you
I’m so messed up god I’m glad I found you

ghosts past

SLAVES

Darling my love’s become so desperate
I hardly recognize it
And I’ve tried in vain to outsmart
These senseless laws that govern our hearts

As I feel you pull away
I tighten my grip
But the closer I pull you in
The further you slip away

We are slaves
We are slaves to the politics of love

WHEN I SEE YOU AGAIN

When I see you again I’m gonna love you so
Honey don’t you know
I’ve been spending all my days just dreaming of you
What else can I do?

Oh! Oh! When I see you again

You got a hold on me
I love you recklessly
And I want you to know
Tell me where and I’ll go

Oh! Oh! When I see you again

I’ve had doubts in the past but I’ve got none of that
All I have is a heart on fire for you
I’ve had doubts in the past but I let them go
All the others I’ve know are nothing but ghosts
I’ve had doubts in the past but they’re all gone now
All the others I’ve known are nothing but ghosts, but ghosts

 

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FANGS

I’ve loved you in silence, in dreams
In the shadows where I sharpen my teeth

You’re an animal that I know I can’t tame
Your wild eyes, your mouth, and your fangs

Baby come right here to me
Take me I want it to bleed

Your mouth my blood uh huh
My mouth your blood uh huh
Your blood my love uh huh

DEFECTIVE HEART

You’re looking for some kind of sign
Search in the dark for a light
But there is nothing in sight

I don’t know the reason and I can’t express
This feeling of emptiness
That’s hollowed out my chest

They fall in love all the time
If it’s so easy then why can’t I?
And I know what you need
But you won’t get it me
Just chasing shadows in the dark
For my defective heart

SHADOW VISIONS

Spent the last 30 years in bombed out towns and the same old bars
Watching the people dance, and did you see me crying?

Tried to hitchhike out of town, 6-pack and something hard
Didn’t make it very far, gave up when it got dark

Found an abandoned shack, slept on the side of the highway
Felt my heart break in two under the same sky as you

You don’t know me anymore

Sleep on my right side so I can’t feel it
But my heart keeps beating, keeps beating without me

JUST FOR YOU

I walk these same old dead-end streets all night just for you
Drunk in a parking lot I wait and I pray just for you
See my breath crystallize outside your window it’s just for you
Embers of my cigarette cut through the night’s blood red hue
Until I’m by your side I die each night just for you

Baby don’t run, don’t fight this love

Just for you

STARS BURNED OUT

Where will we go now the stars all burned out
Skies above us infinite darkness
Shooting sparks like a severed wire
Or dying machines, hardly flickering now

The stars turned to dust and blanketed us
In ash we’re apparitions obsessed by a past
We’ll never get back, can’t get back

Wait
We can make it last
We resurrecting the past

WE WEREN’T WRITTEN

Don’t cry, don’t cry my darling
Like all things do this too will pass
We were just a fleeting moment we weren’t meant to last
Don’t cry we will recede inexorably into the past

I wonder why
Often times the planets seem to align
For nothing, for nothing but a meaningless collision
It can’t last we will recede inexorably into the past

I was looking for a reason that I followed you this far
When I looked into the sky I saw we weren’t written in the stars

SHINY FUR

You were walking through my woods
When I saw your shiny fur
I watched you from my house for days
Your fur shimmering in the sun rays
I built a trap for you with lots of treats
And things you couldn’t resist

I woke up to the sound of your scream
Your leg breaking in the iron teeth
I walked you back to my house on a leesh

With you by my side it makes me smile
You had a limp it was cute for a while
But as the summer turns to fall I hardly think of you at all

I was walking through your woods
When you saw my shiny fur
You built a den for me it was warm and dry
And I didn’t think to ask why

I fell asleep on the rug near the fire
I fell asleep without a single desire
So glad I’d found you

But I could tell you were tiring of me
I sensed a storm in the rising seas
I woke up in the middle of the night
Caught the flash of your butcher’s knife

You used to make me feel 10 feet tall
And with my fur hanging on your fall
I have never felt so small
And as the summer turns to fall
Do you think of me at all?

Or could you forget about me so soon?
How could you forget about me so soon?
I know you hear me howling at the moon

And how do you sleep so tight?
Tell me how do you sleep so tight?
Can’t you feel my eyes burning up the night

And if you see me again you better run
(With your long blonde hair and your eyes are blue)


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